A long Sunday

So when I got up I was extremely tired but I decided to get dressed anyway so I can get ready for a few hours working in the nursery. Every five seconds you have to tell these kids stop and they dont liten but in order to be eligible for the scholarship my church gives out I have to deal with it. I had a massive headache the entire day though so i was ready to hurry up and leave church but it felt like it lasted forever. Then after church my aunt likes to talk to everybody and I just wasnt for it so I just went to the car and laid down

A long Saturday

I had to get up at 7:25 to be at church at 9:00 for my First aid/ and CPR class. Later I had to stay for a your strive meeting that lasted untio 3:00 but I didnt leave until four and then UI had to do my laundry so by the time I got in the bed  I was so tired then I had to get back up and cleanned the kitchen because my aunt is a lazy bum. So in my mind I had myt mind made up that I was not attending church tomorrow but thwn I thought that I really dont want to argue with my aunt over my choice to go to church t. so I just decided I would go.

Red Lobster with Amber and Ashley.

After Amber got off work Amber, Ashley, and I decided to go to Red Lobster to chill and have fun. After eating it was really hard not to flirt with the waiters ( THEY WERE SO CUTE!!!!!) because flirting is in my personality but i maintained to the best of my abilites. After we left Red Lobster Amber to see her boo who's name is boo becuase they dont know each other name which I find really funny. While at the gas station a crack in the cement took my shoes and I almost feel out of my heels smh. Then we drove around for a little bit and went home because we couldnt find anything to do.

Time w/ Thomas

After school I decided to go spend time with thomas. Every time I go over there he's glued to his Xbox 360. That thing is his wife lol but its cool, Im glued to my laptop so I cant judge. When I got home later on that night I got a mysterious call from the coach at Coppin wondering if I was interested in working out with them when worked outs started I responded so quick that she barely finished her statement. I would absolutely love to play volleyball in a college that has my major and is willing to work with me to get a scolarship. I so glad that there are people in the world that are willing to help me succeed in life.

New Town vs Milfilford (JV)

Although some of the girls got kicked off the team for disobeying coach not going to the boys randallstown game we decided to proceed with our cheer season. The game was very intense, every time they would score we would score and this continued until foruth quater. It was crunch time when our Jv Titans pulled through and Tymothy shot the game winning three. After the game Coach Brooks took us to buffalo wild wings and we had so much fun. My night was cool. Oh and congratulation JV titans!!!!!!

Mr. Carney!!!!!!!

After reading the Hunger Games me and Mr. Carney got really close. I really didnt expect it because a lot of students look at Mr. Carney as a mean overly strict teacher but what I've realized is that he has a purpose for everything he does. I never thought Mr. Carney would even be able to reate to me or even be willing to get to the know the bright student and person I am inside but it feels like the Hunger Games brought us together. Im really glad that I was given this great opportunity to get to know Carney he's really cool. Also Im glad I finally finished the hunger games. It was a book I could hardly put down and I barely ever pick up books. This is the first book I've actually finished since the great gatsby in the summer of my 10th grade year so yes, its been a long time. Im so excited to read the next book catching fire, the title just snatches my attention.

Valentines Day!!!!!!!!!!

OMG Im so happy that my day was so successful. I was reallt scared that Thomas didnt get me anything because he wasnt on the bus this morning. In 2nd period I got his candy-gram and all I could do was smile and take a sigh relief. I was wondere what was in store for me . After second we walk to his locker so I can give him his present and he gave me mine. Later we went to luch and ended lunch with juice in my lap thanks to jordan so I had to go to my locker and put on my sweatpants, good thing I had them Today was such a cute day lol

Valentines Day Eve

So its the day before valentines day and I decided to spend some time with amber. After she did my hair her mom took us to the mall and accompained her as she shopped. While she was hsopping I was looking for a job, and one of my favorite store were hiring. RAINBOW!!!!!!!! Amber said that that store is for ghetto people but It has some great deals lol. I hope I get the job althogh the manager was trying to flirt with me which it might be a bad sign but also a blessing for a job so ill what and see.

The wolf in the sheep skin

I decided to pay  attention in church today only because Thomas went to church so I wasnt texting. So today my pastor decided  to preach on the fact that we are suppose to be representing God in all we do and not just coming to church in Sunday being wolf dressed as sheep. It really made me realize that I have to make some christainly changes within myself so that I can be a better reprewsntation of Gods image. Also It made me think of my aunt and how she chages her-self. Outside of church she so quick to call me out of my name and use all type if unGodly launguage but the minute she step in church she act as though she trys to be as "innocent"

A day for me

So I decided to go ge3t my nails done after my aunt got mad that I didnt tell her I got a check form y aunt in north carolina which I felt wasn't any of her business anyway because my name is one the check not hers. I decided to stop by and go see amber at work before goingot get my nails done it always fun to see her. After I got my nails done I had to run over to Food Lion and get all the matirlas to make thomas present. I decided to make him cookies because cookies are my specialty. I cam also use my creativity to turn just a plain old sugar cookie into an awesome Valentines Day surprise. Im always really good at CREATING gifts but when it come to BUYING gifts I suck but I know he's going to love my present.

Thomas House!!!

Today after school I decided to spend time with my aweswome boyfriend Thomas. When I got there he was playing the Xbox 360 as always so I kind of sat there and watch. He really sucks at MW3 or whatever that shooting game is called he keot getting killed life ever 5 seconds. Every time he's player would die I would bust out laughing and he rech the point where he was tired of me laugh and we started play fighting ( which we do all the time anyway). so once it started to get we order pizza and he feed his most cutest dog ever Bently. Bently was jumping all over but he's so cute I didnt mind. Then he walek me home and that was the end of our night. I had alot of fun spending time with him.

Day 2 at home

After school I came straight home and took a nap I was so tired all day. I dont even know why Im so tired because I havent practiced or cheered at any games. I haven even been coming home late, I think its that senioritis kicking in. I woke up at like 8, cleaned the kitchen and started my homework. Im starting to do better in college algebra every since I moved next to Kendyl. She keeps me focused and always working. She also pushes me to get all the work done Im still maintaining my B and Im really glad. MAN I LOVE KENDYL!!!!!!!!

No Practice = No cheering at the game

Today the Girls have a basketball game but because I coach decided to go on a cruise we arent cheering at the game. I kind of feel bad though becuase if it was a boys game all of us would be beggging coach Brooks to let us cheer but because its the girls we dont care. Then again I dont feel bad because they dont like us to cheer anyway and its look upon as gay because its girls cheering for girls but whatever. I ensded up coming home since Amber had to work and I didnt want to go to kendyl's and over stay my welcome. I got a lot of homework done so Im happy about that.

Kendyls house

So because amber had to go to work I went to Kendyls house. I would describe Kendyl as my teddy bear because she soft and I love to lay on her. I really glad that I also got really close to her to although when her mom first meet me she wanted to ask me a thousand questions I didnt mind though. I can honestly say me and kendyl can sit down and laugh about stupid stuff and I love that. I always have to have a freind who loves to lau8gh becuase that is one of my favorite things to do.

No cheer practice all week!!!!!!!!!

Im so happy that we dont have cheer practice all week so today I decided to go to amber's house and hang out with her. Im starting to really get close to amber and I feel that we're getting so close that we're starting to cut all of our other friends off. I never noticed that me and Amber had so much in common and she turning me into the girly-girl I never thought I could turn into. Im really starting to like this New-New Bonita. I am kind of glad that she persuaded me to do cheerleading she help me find the girly-girl hidding with in me. AWWWWWWW I FREAKING LOVE AMBER

1st sunday

Its first sunday and I spent most of my time texting thomas in church which I know its bad but it was really hard to ignore him. He even pointed out the fact that it was bad but he is a big distraction. I wasnt really listening to the sermon so I dont know what my pastor was talking about. When I came home I had to leave back out to go back to church so I can take communion but I didnt even understand the point of ocming home. I had plans to go to Ambers house but because my aunt wants to be a wolf in sheeps skin she wanted to go back and show off. 

Youth strive meeting

I really enjoy going to my youth strive meetings I just wish it was later non in the day because I hate to wake up early. This meeting we were being evaluated on our report cards and also taking pictures for our invitations for our party at the end of the programe. The main thing my mentor adviced me to do was maintain and stay forcused. I feel really good that my grades are well above average with me being in advance classes. It give me a boost to my self-esteem although it always feels like someone is trying to but me down but Im far to strong to let someone put me down. 

BOYS GAME!!!!!! SENIOR NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

So tonight we have to cheer at the boys game and its senoir night. Also I decided to tell thomas yes so yea. Anyways in North Carolina on senoir night the seniors are escorted so I asked thomas if he could come and escort me. Unfortunitly I didnt need to be escorted but he stayed anyway. Everybody started to asl question and like I normally do I just ignored them. The first person I told was Kendyl and the first thing she said was " Its about time" which is definitely true but yea the game was cool even though thomas looked really bored I hope he wasnt made about waist money on the game. 

ABOUT TIME!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!! so today thomas decideds to ask me out but, I dont know what to say. I mean at first I was anxious to say yes but i thought I would have him wait for a little while. I mean I have a lot of freinds who are into me and I really enjoy flirting and I dont want to ruin that. Then again I really like thomas and all so I dont know what to do and I dont want to ask anybody for advice because I want to really think about it and make the decision on my own. Im thinking the answer will be yes but it feels nice to make him wait a while.

Cheer practice

Practice after competition felt pointless like it wasnt nothing to look forward to. Although we didnt place at competition and I realized I wasnt the only person who messed up on the routine competition was chills. Now everybody is back on me and thomas as always lol. I really do wanna know whay was the real reason why he came to competition. Was it that he really came to support me but just got a tickett from another cheerleader or did he really going to support the randallstown cheerleader. I hope that isnt it but I guess in due time I'll find out. 

Tired Tired and more Tired.

Im was so tired that I didnt even get up and go to church I laid in bed all day and didnt move until 2 o'clock when amber called me and told me that she was doing my hair. Im starting to really get close to amber and kendyl and I really dont know why. I think its becuase we are so alike especially with us not liking the favoritsum (how ever spell it) on the team .

COMPETITION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I woke up this morning I didnt say a word to my aunt because I didnt want her words to ruin my morning in which she tends to do all the time. I got up and got ready for coach to coem pick me up. I have nothing on my brain but the routine and not embarrasing myself . Once we got to CCBC and i spotted thomas I got really nervous even though I was really mad at him. After finding out we we're going fourth my hands began to shake. Once doing the rountine and getting off the mat, I just had to break down in tears. I messed up so many times, I didnt do the jumps and our stunt didnt stick. After competiton Kendyl, Amber, and I went back to Kendyls house. Kendyl and I played monoply and twister while amber caught the itits after we ate pizza and went to sleep.

What an awesome day........ NOT!!!!!!!!!!

So I found out that my arm isnt sprained or broken but I just strained a mucsle in my arm so I should be okay after a get a series of shot to help relax my muscle. So coach decides to have a double practice since its the day before competition. unfortunatlely my aunt wanted me to go to a FASFA night at my church  and I dont want to go. So coach get this bright idea to call my aunt and ask her if i could stay and she said my sunt decides to fuss her out so I call her and argur with her  and she calls my mom and then I call her so it was a hugh mess. I went back to my aunt house mad as ever went to the stupid FASFA night thing and it was a total waste of my time.

How ironic

Its 2 days before competition and I hurt my arm. No not on purpose amber had to leave to do some college stuff so I had to take her job as back spot which isnt my thing I have to go to the hospitial and see if its broken on sprained. I hope its nothing serious because now that we've finished the rountine I want to go ahead and run through the routine and get it perfected. I kind of feel something bad is going to happen though like my aunt might start trippin or something. She's been to cool and nice or something or maybe she's starting to chill out which I know thats not it but we'll see,

3 days later

3 DAYS LEFT and still the competition routine is not finished and Im really thinking about faking an injury so I can get out of competion. Like this is definitely how serious it is. I dont want to go to competition and embarrass myself by not doing well and Thomas got a ticket from another cheerleader at Randallstown. That really hurt my feelings smh. I thought we were much closer than that. I guess not. Ugh oh well, I cant let that get in the way of me doing well, as if we finish the routine and perfect it. Im so ready for these last to days to past

Competition is getting closer

As they days until competition getts closer, Im starting to get nervous because we still havent finish the rountine. Coach continues to tell us that we're almost done and we dont look as bad as we think I just cant get over the fact that im not comfortable with going to competition I mean none of us arfe. After competition many of us are thinking quiting the team but I really enjoy cheering so I wont follow in their foot steps. Im really just ready to get through this weekend to be honest everybody is yelling at each other and telling each other to shut up and im just irritated from everybody to be honest.

Pizza!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After a horrible practice and an unfinished routine for competition i decided to go home and order me some pizza. I was feeling a little depressed anyway becuase when I called to check on my application they didnt make a decision yet :-(. That makes me feel like I didnt get in. I am always hearing about people getting excepted into all these colleges and I havent heard from any of the schools that I applied to but the ones I applied to at the black college expo. I guess im not good enough to get into college or idk. I need to go to sleep or something. Im really depressed right now :-(

"Beautiful but flawed"

In church I learned so much and I hope that the message got to my aunt. My aunt really believe that she is the definition of perfect but really she really needs to work on herself but mainly her heart. I know Im not perfect but im working on my heart. I hope me going off to college shows her that her ways are right at all. The way she handles situation needs to change dramatically. Her mindset is definitely not in the stage of time. I feel like shes stuck in the 70's. the problems that they had back then are so much more different then what we have to handle theses days. When I talk to my mom she always tells me that my aunt feels some type of way because she feels like we arent as close as we useto ne when I first moved up here. She absolutley right though. both her and her husband has me pushing myself away and I cant wait to finally go off to college because then I can be in an enviroment that feels like home.

Sunflower seeds

I spent my whole saturday layin in bed, reading the hunger games, and eating one of my favorite snacks SUNFLOWERS SEEDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  When I was younger I would try and plant the sun flower seeds in hopes that it would grow the smaller bags of sunflower seeds but of course i didnt work lol. So about the hunger games, it hasnt even got to the acutually games and its hard to put it down and that surprises me. I have a hard time getting in to books and by the second chapter I was glued. I thought Kennedy was just saying that it was good because she always reading but, it actually has me forcing myslef to put it down. I cant wait until the games officially start I want to see who wins since Kennedy wont tell me :-(. 

LETS GO TITANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So after being stood up by Kendyl at the game, we cheered to night. Even though we didnt get to cheer the full game, when we left in the 3rd quarter  we where winning by a lot. Nothing else really happened. All we did was cheer which was kind of boring. I miss playing basketball. Its much more fun than the just standing on the side lines cheering but this is what I chose to do and I always finish what I start. I really wished I would have stuck to what I know but I need to experience something new. So I guess what Im trying to say is Im glad that I experienced something new but wished I would have stuck to whatI know

getting ready for competition

So Im not feeling very confident in the competition routine. I feel confused and I never know where my spot is. I dont really believe anyone if us on the team besides Erin but she made up the routine so of course she's comfortable. I really hope we can have a team meeting so that we can vote on whether  we should go. In my luck it would be NO. Even though coach says that we look better than we think we look I dont believe her not a bit. I feel lost, lost so I know I look lost, and just about half the time look and feel the same way I do. Even the girls that went to competition in the fall said that they had more prep time for the routine than we have now, I just dont know. We dont need to go and embarrass our selves.

The Hunger games

So I just finished reading the first 3 chapters of  The Hunger Games and surprisingly its getting better as I read each chapter. So this guy Haymitch is really suppose to be Katniss and Petta's mentor? If so I feel like they're in ta world of trouble because he is always drunk. How is he suppose to show Katniss and Petta thye ropes of the games when he can barely form a full sentence without sluring his words. Also I wonder the pin Madge give her actually represents what Katniss really thinks it does. Maybe she gave her that pin to present a message to the viewers. As I think about how the hunger games is going to end, I wonder if Katniss is going to bring home the victory to distict 12. I think it would be awesome for The Hunger Games to end as Katniss being victorious.

UGH!!!!!

Practice today was the worst. I missed practice Thursday of last week so I missed some of the competition routine that we learned in practice. Good thing I'm a fast learner, I thought to myself, Little did I know I was about to be utterly disrepected by the person who had to place me in the formation and created the routine. Good thing Kendyl and Amber was there to help me keep my composure because I was about to fly off the handle. I understand her fustration but its was no reason to take it out on me. I wasnt there so I had to ask alot of questions. Then it was time to learn the dance but she mentioned that she wasnt teaching the dance over again. So I asked Kendyl to help me. I guess it wasnt my day or something because I was aggrevated the entire day.

POTATOES!!!

I have been craving these potatoes for a really really long time. My next door neighbors mom finally made them and when I was over the handed me 3 on a plate. I know its a lot of starch but I swear it is truly worth it especially when you have a aunt like mine who cant cook. I've been asking for these potatoes fro months and i finally got them. These potatoes have made my day and each time I take a bite of this stuffed potatoes my taste buds are sent to heaven. Nothing else really happened today all I ate was potatoes lol

Nursery sunday

Today I spent my time in the Nursery at church. Nursery Sunday's are the ultimate best. Playing with the little kids is so much funny especially when they want to play restaurant which is a all time favorite game. They are so cute but. sometimes you have so bad kids in the nursery. I am usually the one that is quick to send the bad ones up stairs to their parents. It's usually the ones that wont stop crying no matter what you give them. I cant take all that crying, thats one main reason why I dont want to have kids. That and because I'm really selfish. I rather spend money on myself than a snotty nose, and messy child. I really do enjoy working in the nursery though it helps me with my lack of patience because I have absolutely  none at all. 

A boring Saturday

Today nothing really happened. when I woke up, I braided my little cousins hair and went back to sleep. I just dont have the energy top do anything any more. All I want to do is sleep, I really wanna know why that is. I wasnt this tired last year so why am I so tired this year. Where does senior-itis come from? How do you get rid of it? I DONT UNDERSTAND IT UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKE IT GO AWAY JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol I serious though I hate feeling tired all the time. 

New Town V.S Owings Mills

The gym was packed with seats as the varsity boys game was about to begin. I became very nervous because tonight we were doing a half time dance and cheer and we just learned it in the one hour we had t practice. I was also excited because tonight was the night we all actually looked like team because we had our uniforms. Then I became anxious because I wanted to know what the Owings Mills cheerleaders had in store. Although we lost the game and I felt embarrassed  this was a learned experience. I actually got to realize how it feels to be a cheerleader and with these uniforms I felt like we were a whole new team. I cant wait until the game on wednesday.

Day of rest

So I decided to stay home and rest because I haven't had any good sleep in a long time. I was actually surprised my aunt let me stay home but I guess she knew I was tired. I'm usually willing to leave the house even when I'm sick just to get away from my nagging aunt but I definitely need the rest. I was home by for most of the day anyway which was good, but as soon as my aunt walked in she started arguing. Her arguing ruined my day as It always does but next time I dont decided to take a day off to rest I'll go next door and sleep at the neighbors house. They're more welcoming anyway and they actually make me feel like I'm wanted there instead of invisible.

DRY CHEER TEAM!!!!!!!

So today we had to cheer at the boys game and all the captain except Amber where gone to gymnastics knowing that we had to cheer. When i was cheering at my old school in NC, if we didnt make it to the game or had a reasonable reason why we didnt come to the came then we couldnt cheer at all like we got kicked off the team. We are cheerleaders for a reason we support our school no matter what. I definitely understand why Amber w2as upset during the game. When all the captains are missing no one except a few at like they cant think for themselves. Usually when everyones there, its always someone that wants a call a cheer or start a jump line. Today, everyone wanted to act lost and act like this was the first game they have every cheered at. Also no one wanted to show their titan spirit so I left the line for a while until my coach maqde me go back and cheer. This attitude majes me not want to cheer any more, its not fun any more.

Class debate

Instead of doin things associated with college and scholarships we waisted a whole class period debating about something i could careless about. I dont watch football so I dont really care anything about it I felt like the whole debate was pointless and thats why I didnt participate in it. I would have rather be using that time to fill out scholarships that I really need or I will be in a whole lot of debt. Im started to really get aggrevated with this AVID class becuase it feels like waist of time and space in my schedule.

New Town v. Franklin

So today I had the opportunity to cheer for the boys game which is something I've been waiting for since making the team. I say this because to me the boys games are much more exciting then the girls game because in reality they treat the game as a way to show off there talents. Today definitely change that out look because after JT got hurt it was kind of like they were determined to when the game in her favor and secretively made me miss the feeling of coming together as a team with what I felt was my basketball family. I do want to congradulate the girls for there victorious when against Franklin and I hope the boys won. It nothing worst than the feeling of getting  beat in your own house.

Ihop!!!!1

So after church instead of going to the depressing house of horror, I decided to go to Ihop with my cousin and his family. I love spending time with this family because they show me that Im not in this by myself and that I always have another house to excape to when I cant take it any more with my aunt. So once being seated our waitress was my cheerleading coach which was really, really, weird. After leaving Ihop we went to best buy to look around and this guy that worked there started flirting with me. Not trying to be rude, I just started laughing in his face because he was trying way to hard. When he finally built up his courage to ask me for my number I told him I was a lesbian and walked away. Im really mean, which I know, but, he wasnt my type of guy anyway.

Youth S.T.R.I.V.E meeting

So Saturday my youth S.T.R.I.V.E meeting was very interesting. We had speakers who either just graduated from college or is now attending college talk to us and give us advice on college life. The mainthing that was stressed during the meeting was the value of time managment. Using a planner was highly reccomended and staying on top of everything is a must. They also addressed thing such as the responsibilities you take on once gooing to college. Things like waking yourself up for class, finding the right times to wash your clothes or even take a shower and that things you dont even think about when the thoughts of going to college comes to mind. This meeting was very helpful in my doubts of going off to college.

Red Lobster!!!!!!

So I had the opportuntiy to enjoy an awesome dinner with an awesome person. We talked about the problems I have with living in the house with my aunt and the stress of my senior. I really needed to have that talk with someone who was willing to hear both sides of the story. I needed to hear that I wasnt wrong on the decisions that I've made and that the adults that are suppose to be taking care of me isnr handling the situation. After that night I didnt even want to return home because I was having the best time I've had since moving to Maryland and this is my second year here. Thats awful.

FAFSA finished

So I finally finished my application for financial ad all by myself but I will not let this upset me. I thought getting ready for college would be fun and all my family would put all there differences aside and help me with preparing myself for college. Like I didnt think I would have to ask for help, I'm thinking the help would already be waiting for me. This whole experience shows me that the only person I have is myself. I'm glad that I got it done though even though I call those representative 12 times. I had to do what I had to do to get things done. Just as long as I got it finish I wasnt even worried about it. My next obsticle is finding a job so I can start saving for college. I wont have the support of my aunt and uncle and my mim just cant do it by herself so like I said its all on me. This is why I have a bad mood when I'm at home becuase I feel like I dont have the support and no one cares. Im just over it.

Toast for change

My toast for change in 2012 is to be come a healthier person. Not only with my diet but also with the decisions and the attitude. One thing I've realized about myself is that I always allow my anger to get the best of me. I have to become a stronger person and be able to take charge of my situation. Nothing in this world will be handed to me and thats why I have to obtain a healtier out-look on life. I have to find ways to re-direct my anger issues into positive solutions and actions. I would love to be a more happy person not only at school but also at home where I'm having the most problems.

Finally did it!!!!

After working really hard and staying focused, I finally recieved a B in honors college algebra. I didnt think this task was tangible but I definitly proved my self wrong. I really proud of myself and when I saw it on edline, I just had to take a picture of it. I hope I can continue working hard so that B can eventually turn into an A ( I doubt that smh). Now the grade I have to work on now is that AVID grade. I really dont understand why I have a D because most of the things I have missing are done but, I definitely need to talk to someone about fixing my grade. I still dont understand why we get graded on blogs when clearly when the idea was brought up, it was a way to see how we transformed through our senior year and the first semester of college. Although this assignment has turn into a dog bit to the booty, I will no longer complain or make another comment about these blog because I've state my feelings several times. In conclusion, I GOT A (B) IN COLLEGE ALGEBRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM TOOOO HAPPYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A new hair experience

So I finally experienced doin my first sow-in and man it was terribly hard. The braiding was the easiest part. Thank God Tezerea walked me through it. Once I got the hang of it, There came a new obstacle sowing a double lace thing or whatever you called it. I was really hard because the thread wouldnt go though without using the alot of force. I would never sow-in a weave EVER again. There is no amount of money big enough for me to do it. It's really time consuming and its alot that you have to be cautious of.

2012!!!!!!!

Usually I make a New Years resolution but, this year I will not. I made so many changes within myself and I am happy with what I've become for right now. I have done so many stupid things in 2011 that you wouldnt believe. I disappointed not only myself but my entire family and I hate that feeling. Through those mistakes I have blossomed into the young lady everyone was waiting on. I was talking to my mom as the New Year came in and all she could say was that she proud of me. She was glad that God changed my heart so that I can evolve into the young woman I am now. I just want everyone to be proud of me instead of disappointed with me all the time. The only person that has trouble getting over the mistakes I make is my uncle. He will hold a grudge until the world ends. His attitude makes me feel like he doesnt want me to be living in the same house or being in the same room as him. My mom told me not to wory about it and thats exactly what I'm going to do. Hopefully God will work on him as he has on me because, he truely needs it.

New Year's Eve

Because my aunt didnt want people to stare at her we didnt go to church like I planned to go to bring in my new year right so yes I spent my New Year's eve in bed Watching 106 and party which was cool. I know this make me sound "uncool" but I've never been to a New Year's Eve party. My family is really big on religion so we always go to church to bring in the new year. Ever since I was a little girl I spent my New Years Eve at church but once I go off to college im going to PARTY!!!!. My family will be very disappointed but, they have to let me live out life and make mistakes on my own and thats why Im chosing to do it up big on New Year's Eve.

My chill day!!!!!

I didnt do anything but watch TV all day. I did do my laundry but other than that I layed on the couch and texted, while watching TV. My aunt didnt bother me because she cant walk down the stairs so yep life was great for today. Although I feel bad saying it, I'm kind of glad she fell. She's not all over me as much as she useto be she's not asking me; where I'm going, who I'm texting, and why am I not doing something. All she does is stay in her room so this pass week has been heaven to me. I mean I still did my chours kept my room and the bathroom clean but this has been the most relaxing week ever. She needs to keep this attitude towards me because life would be so much easier.

HAIR DRESSERS!!!!!!

This morning my aunt forgot to tell me my hair appointment was at 9:30 so, I had to rush and throw on clothes and head out the door which I hate. Once I got there, I was waiting for at least an hour just so I can get a touch up and my ends clip smh. My Cousin-in-law thinks I should cut my hair but, I am not trying to. I want to grow my hair out. My head is way to long for a short cut. If I was to cut it short I wouldnt know what to do with it half the time anyway. There isn't much you could can do with a short cut. So know (I will not cut my hair I'm leaving it just the way it is besides coloring it. I tried a mahogany rinse but it didnt come ut as bright as I wanted it so im going with a red rinse.

Shopping with rea day 2

On shopping day 2 I decided to be girly, Why? I dont know just felt like it. I even carried a big shoulder purse which was a definite surprise to my aunt because I usually dont carry purses. She actually asked me if I was going on a date smh. Anyway, Once we reached the mall I realized that I didnt have my wallet, all I had was my change purse. Rea ended up having to pay for my food but I paid for her's the prior day so we are even lol. These two days with Rea made me realize alot about myself. I'm actually girlier than I think I am which is really weird. But hey guess it is what it is.

Shopping with rea day 1

I had so much fun shopping with Tezerez. She made me step out of the box and try new things. One of those new things was buying these heels. I told Rea that I was terrified to walk in heels because I never tried. So she made me talk off my shoes, put those heels on, and walk aroind in the store. To my surprise, it wasnt that hard to walk in them and they feel really comfortable. I thought I was tall enough but, those heels made me

feel at least 6"4. I feel like a super tall giant in those heels. Well im really excited about this new side of me and ready for day 2 of shopping!