Pizza!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After a horrible practice and an unfinished routine for competition i decided to go home and order me some pizza. I was feeling a little depressed anyway becuase when I called to check on my application they didnt make a decision yet :-(. That makes me feel like I didnt get in. I am always hearing about people getting excepted into all these colleges and I havent heard from any of the schools that I applied to but the ones I applied to at the black college expo. I guess im not good enough to get into college or idk. I need to go to sleep or something. Im really depressed right now :-(

"Beautiful but flawed"

In church I learned so much and I hope that the message got to my aunt. My aunt really believe that she is the definition of perfect but really she really needs to work on herself but mainly her heart. I know Im not perfect but im working on my heart. I hope me going off to college shows her that her ways are right at all. The way she handles situation needs to change dramatically. Her mindset is definitely not in the stage of time. I feel like shes stuck in the 70's. the problems that they had back then are so much more different then what we have to handle theses days. When I talk to my mom she always tells me that my aunt feels some type of way because she feels like we arent as close as we useto ne when I first moved up here. She absolutley right though. both her and her husband has me pushing myself away and I cant wait to finally go off to college because then I can be in an enviroment that feels like home.

Sunflower seeds

I spent my whole saturday layin in bed, reading the hunger games, and eating one of my favorite snacks SUNFLOWERS SEEDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  When I was younger I would try and plant the sun flower seeds in hopes that it would grow the smaller bags of sunflower seeds but of course i didnt work lol. So about the hunger games, it hasnt even got to the acutually games and its hard to put it down and that surprises me. I have a hard time getting in to books and by the second chapter I was glued. I thought Kennedy was just saying that it was good because she always reading but, it actually has me forcing myslef to put it down. I cant wait until the games officially start I want to see who wins since Kennedy wont tell me :-(. 

LETS GO TITANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So after being stood up by Kendyl at the game, we cheered to night. Even though we didnt get to cheer the full game, when we left in the 3rd quarter  we where winning by a lot. Nothing else really happened. All we did was cheer which was kind of boring. I miss playing basketball. Its much more fun than the just standing on the side lines cheering but this is what I chose to do and I always finish what I start. I really wished I would have stuck to what I know but I need to experience something new. So I guess what Im trying to say is Im glad that I experienced something new but wished I would have stuck to whatI know

getting ready for competition

So Im not feeling very confident in the competition routine. I feel confused and I never know where my spot is. I dont really believe anyone if us on the team besides Erin but she made up the routine so of course she's comfortable. I really hope we can have a team meeting so that we can vote on whether  we should go. In my luck it would be NO. Even though coach says that we look better than we think we look I dont believe her not a bit. I feel lost, lost so I know I look lost, and just about half the time look and feel the same way I do. Even the girls that went to competition in the fall said that they had more prep time for the routine than we have now, I just dont know. We dont need to go and embarrass our selves.

The Hunger games

So I just finished reading the first 3 chapters of  The Hunger Games and surprisingly its getting better as I read each chapter. So this guy Haymitch is really suppose to be Katniss and Petta's mentor? If so I feel like they're in ta world of trouble because he is always drunk. How is he suppose to show Katniss and Petta thye ropes of the games when he can barely form a full sentence without sluring his words. Also I wonder the pin Madge give her actually represents what Katniss really thinks it does. Maybe she gave her that pin to present a message to the viewers. As I think about how the hunger games is going to end, I wonder if Katniss is going to bring home the victory to distict 12. I think it would be awesome for The Hunger Games to end as Katniss being victorious.

UGH!!!!!

Practice today was the worst. I missed practice Thursday of last week so I missed some of the competition routine that we learned in practice. Good thing I'm a fast learner, I thought to myself, Little did I know I was about to be utterly disrepected by the person who had to place me in the formation and created the routine. Good thing Kendyl and Amber was there to help me keep my composure because I was about to fly off the handle. I understand her fustration but its was no reason to take it out on me. I wasnt there so I had to ask alot of questions. Then it was time to learn the dance but she mentioned that she wasnt teaching the dance over again. So I asked Kendyl to help me. I guess it wasnt my day or something because I was aggrevated the entire day.