Monday, October 31, 2011

The day that has opened my eyes.


So today was a day that I really needed to experience. I recieved not one, not two, but three letters of recommendations and after reading them it makes me feel really good about myself. All these letters truely opened my eyes to things that I didnt even know I had within myself. They've shown that from the time I stepped in the front door of high school I've changed. I have been through a journey that I didnt evem ealize I went through. As a freshman I felt like it was going to take me forever to become a senior, but time has definitely flew. It scares me a little to realize that im leaving the safety of high school and entering the world of greater responsibilty. I thought I was ready to leave but in reality, I'm not. I have a habit of hidding my emotions behind my smile and my outgoing, take charge personality. I need to showcase that I am terrified so these under classman especially te ones in AVID that its not a easy road to travel. It's a lot of responsibility that you have to take on. I love being a senior but its a lot of work and takes focus.  

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Random act of kindness

Im not aloud to have my phone in church so i coul take a pic =(



Usually when you find mony on the ground, your first though is yes I found money. Well today at church this elderly lady drop a $100 dollar bill on the ground and didnt notice it. I was so tempted to keep that money but insteaded I caught up to her and gave her the money. I really wanted to keep it but I was in the house of the lord so I thought it would be right lol.

Senoir portrait proofs


So my senoir portrait proofs came in today and im excited to order them. I remember the day we took senior portraits was caotic. Mu hair didnt trnout right, Ididnt ge enough sleep that night, and I had to run to Giant to get eye liner and mascara. I didnt have any earring on and I had to borrow tezerea's. I'm glad they turned out very well. I'm ready take our cap and growns even though that gold does not agree with me lol. I'll make it work being that im modeling material.


UGH!!!!!!!!!!

Ugh!!!! So my aunt decided to mak me angry as she does ocasionally. I planned to go to the movies with Angela and I told her on Friday that was planning to go. She said the reason why  couldnt go was because I wasnt doing my homework. I ried to explain to he that I am doing my homework but the reason why I had zeros was because Mr. Daniels believes I'm letting others copy my hmework. I told her he is alowing me to stay after school so that I can fix my grades but she did want to hear it. So once again I spent my weekend inthe house as I do many weekends and thats starting to anger me even more.

Mentoring






From the first day I met this youg lady I knew she needed a sister like figure in her life that knew a little more than she did and was going through somethings. I tried to mentor her and stay by her and guide her the best way I know how but today was the day I decided that there is nothing else I can do. Today she decided to be the type of person she's not. She decided to do things that would make people start seperating themselves from her and I dont blame them. I use to call this girl my little sister but she makes me regret ever meeting her. She makes me sick to my stomach with the decisions she makes for herself and I hope she gets a serious wake up call. Ever time I try to tell her decision that is in her best intrest she wants to make an argument and I'm so tired of aruging with her that I just give up. I feel bad that she isn't make te best decisions for herself but what can I do? I did all I can do in the begining and now..... IM TIRED.

nothing nothing nothing

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So absolutely nothing happened. I woke up late, I came to school, went home and slept all day. This is the first day in a long time that I havent have anything happen. sorry so short but nothing.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

A day full of good news

So today has been the best day I have had in aery long time. I just feel like everything is falling into place and it's starting to become alot easier. Little do I know there is so much more that needs to be done. So I recieve some really good news. The coach from Penn State finally ended the game of phone tag with my uncle and got down to handling business. She told my uncle that she is very intrested in me and enjoys the way I play. She also stated that she wishes that there where six of me to come play for her in which I thought was a tad bit weirod. This news really blew me away because I've only been play for two years and I feel like I still have time to develope. I also never imaged that I would be attending college on an athletic scholarship because I didnt get recruited my junior year. I feel really blessed to have such an amazing family to push me into stepping out of my comfort zone because if it wasnt for them I wouldnt be receiving this amazing opportunity. I just feel really good and look forward to visiting the campus at Penn State really soon!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

First Themis Meeting


Today was our first Themis meeting!!!!!. I was both excited and nervous al at th same time. It felt like we were all being looked up to and to see that we've been in there footstep it makes me feel really old. Like I really feel old. But was really unorganized and I hop we have learned from this meeting so that our next meting will be so much better but I did havefun wit my group of under classmen

Senoirits is really staring to kick me in he booty


Sleepy ugly as my little brother say lol but he's absolutely right. All I've been wanting to do is sleep. As most other call it thesenoiritis isnt ajoke like it really makes you want to crash. Now that vollybal is over I definietly come home and take a nice nap. Naps are my best friend as of right now but senoiritis is startigto cause me to sleep a little in my grades ad that can't happen. I'm really trying hard to fight through it but its justlike the devil, it keeps coming after me and pulling me to fall asleep and become lazy. Maybe I can fight it like I've been fighting the devil, with the words of the bible. Is there something I can do to get rid of? If so PLEASE TELL ME!!!!!!!

Gospel Tabernacle Live broadcast


When it comes to church I wouldnt miss it for the world, but whnen imunabl to make it I always watch the live broad cast on my laptop. Church has been a key part of how I'v been brought up and is something I don play about. God has done so much for me and has so much instore for me that I feel its not an option to attend church. Alot of m peers probably feel like they have so much time to get close to God but what they might not understand is that tommorow is not promised. So that'swhy I serve my good every sunday, so that I can get closer to God.

An unexpected call!!!


Durng the senoir game I received a call from coach burgess for Penn State York. She called on the regards that sh ant m to come up and visit the campus. This call was so out of the blue amd unexpected that I didnt even know how to react to it. I missed the call anyway but My uncle is keping in contact with her and we are scheduling a visit to Penn State very soon. So I'm very excited about this opportunity. Sometimes it feels so unreal but im very thankful. I guess this is God way of letting me know he most absolutly has a plan for me and Im excited to see how my future is going to turn out.

Buffalo Wild wings with Angela

Disappointed by how full  Owings Mills movie was, Angela, Our license (chris) and I, went to Buffalo wild wings and had so much fun. After receiving our food Angela decided to try the all time hottes wing sauce of all time after I specficallly told her not to. I had to waved down the waitress in order to "save her life". After leaving buffalo wild wings we went to wal-mart and payed around lol. it was good to get out.

Senoir game!!!!!!

 

 So I experience then senoir game and that experience was over-whelming. As soon as I walked in the gym and so all the posters on the wall it hit me that this was my last game of my highschool career and thats when I began to tear up. All the JV players were like aw dont cry but that just increase the emotions. It was really hard to hold my tears back durig the game and even though we lost I still enjoyed the time we had on the court as a family

Sunday, October 23, 2011

The worst game of the season!!! >:-O


So the game against Towson was a game that I though I would never experience. There was so much acrimony after losing the first match. The reason why I got upset was becuase instead of expressing positive energy, there were a plethora of attitude displayed and only a few of us try to uplift the whole entire team. I wasnt expecting to win the game but i thought we would at least get to 10. The scores were so embrassig that I refuse to display. Your probally wondering why Im holding ice to my eye, I got hit in the face with the ball  smh I don't want to continue tlking about this game. I have A senoir game coming up so I have to get my mindset for that.

TGIT video

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So today in AVID class we watched a video that was kind of pointless to me on how we should feel on tuesadays I guess. I really couldnt understand him because he was yelling and over dramtic the whole video. Of course we had to take notes and do a blog on which was also pointless to me because I thought our blogs where suppose to be about us but, here's what I'm sure everybody wrote down.

1.) Take full responsibilty
2.) Make up when you mess up
3.)Dont give up and keep movig forward
* your in control of your own destiny
* if there is no stuggle there is no progress

The Senoir Game is approaching!!!!!! :-D

The senoir game is coming up and it really hasnt hit me yet. Hy-bia asked me was I going to cry and I told her no but once it hit me of course im going to cry. This is game symbolize the last time I'm going to put on the number eleven jersey that I first started the experience if playing volleyball in. Its going to be both a sad and rejoicing day and I really hope we win. That would be such an awesome way to end our season and the end of my high school career!!!!!!

Praying for Success!


After talking to my mom, I thought I should take this to the only person who can fix it, the Lord. I prayed for a sign, a sign the God is using me to break my families bad habbit and to also guide me in the right path because the way I've been feeling I just want to give up. With all the pressure from my family wanting me to succeed and the feeling that I'm going to let them down is becoming unbearable. I feel like besides my mom there is no individual I can talk to, to express the way I've been feeling so yeah, I'm giving it to God. I'll see what's in store.

College reasearching!!!!

 As I continue to look into colleges the more the I become nervous. I'm starting to doubt myself and starting to feel that maybe I'm not good enough to call myself a college student. I'm not sure what it is though, I really want to go to college and break the bad habbit of high school dropouts but smetimes I feel that's where I'm suppose to be.  I talked to my mom about and she said " If you wansn't suppose to become a college student, God would have been directed you in another path. So that should tell you that the Lord has a plan for you". She always knows the right words to say when I start to get down, and I'm not sure what I would do without her.

New Town vs Woodlawn

Another L and at this point there is nothing I can say to motivate myself for he better. How do we let Woodlawn come back after we won the first two matches. Coach G was right we have to learn how to finish a game. I am beyond up set of how the game ended but hey it is what it is and there is nothing I can say to fix up the record that we have obtained

Always smile


After the Sparrows Point lost, I came to school feeling irritated and not wanting to be bothered with anyone. All day everyone would ask me what was wrong and I wouldnt sat anything because I felt like they were trying to find the next thing to have going around school. Finally period came around and the freshman that sat next to me asked me what was wrong and as usual I didnt respond. I put my head down for a few seconds and when I picked my head I saw this cute picture drawn on my paper. All I could do was smile and that smile continued as I went to practice

New Town vs Sparrows point


So once again we lost and I have a feeling that because we have three games left, most of my teammates stop caring and thats why our record is the way it is. As my coach said " I  had a better team in September than I have as of right now", and to hear her say that, it really hurt. My mom says I'm too emotional when it comes to sports and what I tell her is, while im paying I but my heart on the court, an when my team lose its like the other team is stomping on my heart and it seriously hurt to the point where I get upset.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I did my nails again!!!!!!!!!!!


So i did my own acrlylic nails again. They look so much better than the last time I did them. Well I'm kind of tired from the tough lost we took tonight going to bed!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Ugh not again!!!!!!!

 Ughhhhhhh my toenail fell of once again and although its going to grow back, it makes me mad every time I look at it. Last year I thought I figured out the reason why I bruised my toe last year but when i was changing polish of my toes I saw the my toe nail was turning purple and I knew it was going to fall off soon. Then as i was putting on soaks I felt my nail lift up and all I could do wa shake my head. It should be back by the summer or late spring but, that's a really long time from now but I'll be okay

I learned a new word. Yayyy!!!!!


During our Drill, my friend Kristen asked Mr. Taylor how to spell anachronism but of course Mr. Taylor never even heard of the and neither did I. I asked her what it meat but she gave me examples such as; if someone goes back in time and talks about Ipods that's an anachronism. When I go home I decied to look up the word to find out the definition. Anacronism means something or someone that is not in its correct historical or chronological time. So yay!!! I learned a new word, and imreally excited about it. 

Monday, October 10, 2011

My UGGs came in!!!!!!!!


 So my UGGs came in and I'm really excited. Mainlly because i paid for them with my very own money. Man does it feel good to say that. At first I thought I wouldnt like to spend my own money but in reality it gives me a sense of independence.

PARTY TIME!!!!!!!!!!



So I got invited to one of the most awesomest birthday party ever!!!!!!! Although that party was only four ours it felt like it lasted for ever. we dance to the whole macorana (spelling is off) which felt like it lasted for years. My side began to hurt lol as many others did. She also had my favorite food PIZZA!!!!!!!!!!!! I had like four slices. I really enjoyed myself though, I think Kim did to because she bust her booty dancing outside lol now that was funny. Well the fall was funny but the fact that she hurt herself wasnt. I hope that there are more parties in store this year!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thinking about planning a graduation party but I have to think about it a little more

Ugh im starting to get senoir-itis!!!!!!!!!!


This picture definitely explains how I feel right now. All I want to do is just kick back and sleep but, I know that I have to much responsibility to even think about kicking back. I also have family wayching me because I'm the first of my father's chidren to make it this far in my highschool career and some wants me to succeed while other think and believe that I'm going to follow in the footsteps of my older siblings. Those who believe im going to fail in life, gives me the drive to go above and beyond to succeed and that's what i love most about myself. I dont let others negativity get the best of me, I use those emotion to push me to sho them that they're wrong!!!!! 

Got my hair back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

" Boy have I missed you" I said as i was straightening my hair. I really missed getting up and styling my hair every morning. The only thing is I hate that I sweat it out at practice. The price of being a student-athlete I guess. Oh and my hair is extra, extra soft for no reason ha ha ha ha!!!!! I LOVE MY HAIR!!!!

Took a tough L to pikesville!!!!


To me after we lost two matches we just wanted to lose and go home and I hate when that happens. Its like we stop caring, and we lose focus on what's important. When we play as a family we win games but when we dont have fun on the court and get down when we are a few points behind we lose games. That's why I feel we should play as a family all the time, regardless of whats going on in our social lives. There isnt too much I can say, because our performance reflect in how we run pratice in which we dont do things to better our-selves.We spend most of practice exercising rather than doing drills to helps us better our techniques but hopefully next we can pull it together to get this W  

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Crushing on a special someone ;)


Omg, so I have a super big crush on this boy in my 4th period class. He's really fun to talk to and really easy on the eyes if you know what I mean. Now that I have he's number I'm so terrified to text him. What a lot of people dont know about me is I am really shy. I know what your thinking right now, but seriously whenit comes down to my emotions I am quiet and shy. I really dont know what to do right now do I just play it cool and see what happens or do I just keep the friendship as is. Ugh I hate when I get like this, I feel lie I'm still in middle school but in middle school it was much worse. Maybe i'll figure out what to do further down the road.

New Town v.s. Owings Mills

 
So the game againts Owings Mills wass much fun. I couldnt stop smiling the whole game. Well except when i hadto serve, that's when I have to concentrate. I realize the mistakes that I make with in myself aren't things that should get me down, but are things that should make want to improve and become better as a player. There are so many things I still need to learn buy overall, There are so many things I've learned with in the two years I've been playing. Many older people that I converse with think I've been playing for more than two years because of the skills I've been able to grasp and my ability to grasp those skill fastly. 

Monday, October 3, 2011

A adrenaline filled game with an unexpected outcome


So today we played an awesome game against Owings Mills High which resulted into a win. YAYYYYYY!!!!! The unexpected part of tonight was that a scout from Penn State was there. After the all the senoirs where diected  to sit on the bench so that she could discuss her presence. She notifyed us that she wanted us to consider Penn State for volleyball. Now if you didnt Penn State is a power house. They have been national champions for four years and to have her to come and scout us out is definitely an amazing opportunity!!! Im excited to recieve her email with information on workouts and other things like that!!!!!!!!

Awwwww im growing up so fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So today i definitely had a feel of how it feels to be independent. I went shopping with my own money that I worked so hard for and it definitely was a rush. I'm so use to being spoiled spending my parents money and not havig to work or anything so it was an appeasing feelng. It notifies me that i'm not alway going to hve somone there to give me the things I want so im goingt o have to work for it!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Country style fries lol


So as everybody knows i'm a country girl from Norh Carolina and I have a really country accent but, what most people don't know about me is that I absolutely love to cook. This dish is definitely somthing really quick that I make often. Every since I was a little girl my mom had me in the kitchen. Rather it was helping to make home made mashed potateos or mixing cake batter I was alwaysin the kitchen. Thanksgivng is and has always been one of my faorite holidays. To me its more than just sharing a meal with my family, its a time where the older generation pass down family traditions to the younger generation and thats why I really enjoy cooking

We got the warm-up pants!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So we hve our awesome pants to coordinate withour awesome jackets.  Now that we have the whole warm-up, I feel like whenwe wear these we ar going to look like we are a team ad that we belong to ech other. Everybody is gig to love them because welook aweome. When I put this warm-up on I fee like im apr of  sisterhood and that feeling is definitely going to show on the court when we play as a team. I know my coach is definitely going to miss us because this year, her team is made up of senoirs and maybe four under classman. I LOVE MY VOLLEYBALL SISTERS!!!!!!